Life works in very mysterious ways..

It’s interesting how life plays out at times. 

Sometimes it takes for you to take one of the biggest risks of all to find out what you really want but then you realize that it’s all too late and that you now are stuck in the same situation only thing is you got left with nothing. 

Risks should always be taken though and no matter what at least you have finally made up your mind even if someone else has now changed theirs…

things always do a 180 when you least expect it.

just no matter never REGRET anything that you wanted to do at one point or another.

The Key

The key to my own success is confidence. 

I believe that confidence drives people and allows them to get to where they are and need to be. Not only in the workforce but in every single aspect, that including the mating game. 

It is the main factor why I always fall back on many opportunities, its the lack of confidence that I have that makes me feel so vulnerable and afraid to let go. 

It is that lack of confidence that makes me stay home and not go out and meet people. 

Well actually it is that lack of confidence that has me friendless, so even if I wanted to go out I really can’t. 

So, it isn’t you that I get upset with, it isn’t you moving on or me holding on to something that won’t ever work out. 

It’s that I get upset with myself because I would never ever do things like to you. 

whether or not we are not together I wouldn’t sit there and put myself out there like that and basically intentionally hurt you. So it does get to me when you do stuff like take me out but then right after we’re home you get ready and head out with your friends knowing I’ll be home doing shit, because if I were ever to go anywhere it would be simply to a friends house because they asked me to. 

It just seems a little fucked up at least from my point of view but mostly its just my way of being upset with myself. You go ahead and do you, I just need to figure out a way to get myself out there and doing the same because at the end of the day I can’t just keep going back because you’re all I have I need to go out and meet others to cut the dependency I have with you because as sad as it sounds you are all that I have had for a long time and its just something that I don’t want anymore.